Sunday, October 18, 2015

on my mind today

Thinking about many diverse things today.... of people I care about and hoping they know I love them. Love can be expressed in so many ways people often can miss it, interpret it wrong or just don't feel it. It sometimes gets expressed in fear or worry when it should be expressed with patience and acts of kindness.... but we are human and sometimes blow it. We need to take good care of ourselves too though. Feed the soul and be kind to yourself.....let yourself off the hood once in a while.

I'm thinking of my daughter, Jenni, who is going to be a mom soon. I am seeing her mommy heart grow bigger and bigger every day....full of a mother's love for the little brand new life inside of her. I couldn't be more proud ... and humbled... and grateful for little "P" who will arrive in another few weeks.

This is a very loved little girl....already....

I wish I could help some people just slow down and think... and use their God-given minds to make good decisions. Ones that bring life and opportunities ... peace and contentment. Life gets tough sometimes regardless of whether we do the right thing, but we can't keep walking a wrong path and expect life to be easy .... or good things to happen.

Sometimes I love my backyard best of all. Pulling weeds, feeling the breeze, watching the birds and other critters busily doing what it takes to survive. 

I've been wanting a cool morning for weeks now and when we finally get one I decide a bike ride would be perfect. I must be getting more and more comfortable with heat because I felt uncomfortably cold with the 55 degrees. I doubt I'd survive a winter in the North anymore.  The fall colors gave me happiness .....

I saw this picture today and just gained five pounds thinking about holiday baking. It's a wonderful thought and brings to mind many happy times. Thank you, Mom, for all the wonderful memories I have to do with the holidays, and just being together having fun.

When all is said and done, kindness matters. It matters a lot. Often I'll look back at an event or encounter I've had with someone and think I could have done better... spoke a little nicer, been more of an encourager. Obviously, speaking our mind truthfully needs to take place too... and truth can sometimes sting... and is just what we need to hear.... but everyone is fighting some battle of their own and a kind word could make their day. 

And lastly, I'm thinking of discipline. And doing things that are hard. I'm needing to get out of the rut I'm in and I have a new resolve. It involves being more mindful and working harder.

Unless you change how you are, you will always have what you've got. -Jim Rohn

Discipline is remembering what you want. -David Campbell

Discipline is the bridge between goals and accomplishments. -Jim Rohn


It's nice to have good intentions, but we have to act and do the work if we want to accomplish anything .... 

Things on my mind today.

Monday, October 12, 2015

journey and contentment

I'm on a journey. One day, one step at a time. We all are. Some days I feel so confident and other days so full of vulnerability and need.

Some days ready to move forward... move on... other days stuck (not sure that is the right word) and happy just where I am.

But what I do know is that when I'm ready to move forward, I do.. and when I am not, I don't. I have come so far... and what is ahead will reveal itself in the proper time.

Every day is full of new experiences to process... and I want to accept who I am without apologies... as to where I've come from and where I am going. If others don't understand it's okay. It's my own timeframe.. and God's....

Feeling content tonight....

Thursday, October 1, 2015

today and every day

Some days are just like that.... a song, a memory, a feeling...  

.... brings everything flooding back like a tidal wave if it were yesterday... and not years.... it's part of living... and having loved and been loved ... deeply ....

Today is a day like that.

I sing again.

I dance again (sometimes).

I laugh.

I have joy... peace....

I remember happy things.... and smile... and savor the memories.

But today. Today I give myself permission to cry.... and grieve all the things I am missing. Mostly your strong arms.... 

I miss you so.

Every day.

So I'll just let those waters flow over me... and wait until the calm returns.