Centering myself....trying to keep balance.... and connection. Sometimes life comes at us in ways that knock us off that center ... or we have a reprieve from taking care of ourselves as we should. It's a challenge to keep it all together... and we often don't know we are neglecting an important part until something breaks down. I have been taking care of neglected parts of me lately. Learning how to do all I can... the BEST I can... and then surrendering to God to do what I cannot. And trusting him with the outcome.
Peace will come.... I want to feel like a fine wine.... getting better with age from having gone through the experiences I have. From learning and growing.
Thinking of the spiritual part of us... I think the spiritual part involves seeking. Seeking meaning and purpose. Being drawn to hope and not giving in to despair. It's believing there is something more in life. It's hope and light and ... grace.
I think of Edd again... as always... The end of his life was full of ... spirit. The physical he was unable to control, but the spirit... was so evident. I saw so often his true self. The part of him that had hope and purpose and strength and grace... and love.
I know there are spiritual and physical laws in the universe and when miracles occur they happen when God bends these laws for us in an intimate way. It brought me to tears as I thought of his power. Sometimes he does, and sometimes he doesn't. I don't know all the whys. But I know I have had many blessings in my life. I cherish and treasure them. I am so grateful for what I've been able to experience.
I think a way I can honor Edd is by living. If I'm still here I must have a purpose. If he had hope and love, grace, and joy... I can too.
I'm off to the Oregon Coast tomorrow... I hope to post some pictures of the beauty... and relish being with family and enjoying God's creation... and being present. In the moment. Centering. Breathing. And being Home with myself....