“Waiting to develop courage is just another form of procrastination. The most successful people take action while they’re afraid!” ~ Unknown
I've been taking action lately and it does dispel fear... eventually. Facing our fears is the way to set ourselves free.
This week I had a colonoscopy scheduled. They aren't pleasant for anyone, I know that, but for me it seemed even more personal. Edd might still be with me now if he had gotten his when he turned 50. As I lay on my hospital bed seemingly forever waiting for the doctor to arrive for his first patient of the day (me) the tears slipped from of my eyes... over and over again. Try as I might to prevent them from coming, my efforts were in vain. My whole body was racked with emotion as I thought about what he went though, what we went through together and how it all began....
Sensitive aren't I? Yeah, I am. I beat myself up. I worry over things I can't control.
But I'm also so so tired of suffering because of it. Fear that is. Fear of the future. Fear of the consequences of others' decisions. I think I've suffered enough. I think I'll take back my power. I think I'll face my fears and not let them handicap me and MY life.
I'm onto something.
Getting that test done was a start. And today I continued with an X-ray of my wrist that has been painful for almost two months.
Fear. It can be a powerful and debilitating thing. Especially for those with a predisposition for giving it too much ground in your life. Maybe for those who have experienced too much of the harsher aspects of life. But isn't that ALL of us at one time or another? I believe it is.
Maybe I need to see myself as not so unique and grow some thicker skin. But that would be rational. And fear is often... irrational.
Yes, for sure.
So, I want to move on and LIVE. Live and love well. In spite of the torpedoes life sometimes flings our way. My way. Your way. Let's grab hold of life and run with it!
“Each of us must confront our own fears, must come face to face with them. How we handle our fears will determine where we go with the rest of our lives. To experience adventure or to be limited by the fear of it.”