Today Edd is getting his second cyberknife treatment. The doctor will zap a few more tumors in his brain. They make it all sound like routine, these doctors, nurses and technicians, but geeze, the brain! There is nothing casual or routine about it.
Edd is acting a little bit different. A little bit ... off maybe. A little more emotional, a little more, in his words, fragile. He really needs reassurance ... And a lot of affection and love.
I can do that. I can give that.
He has always been the strong one. He was the one in control. I need to be that now. And I will.
This man is my hero. He is like a good soldier going off to battle day after day. Standing tall. He endures each new thing, each new development, each new procedure like a strong warrior.
He is my hero.
My tears are not flowing at the moment. There is too much time now for caring and holding and reassuring and sharing and expressing love. So much love.
I can do this.