Today was a relatively peaceful day. There was certainly work to be done but I made some decisions that I knew Edd would want me to make. Sometimes that helps when I'm not sure exactly what to do. I think of the decision he'd make if he knew what was happening. I remembered back to many discussions we've had. He was never someone unable or afraid to make a decision. I want to be like that more.
When I went to the grocery store I even bought myself some flowers. When we were dating he would bring me a bunch every other week. He loved doing that so much. He said he hoped he always would... even after we were married for years.... so today I bought them for myself.... from him. Because he would have wanted me to.
There are so many decisions to make. And none are easy. But I will keep trying to make ones that bring peace and comfort and loving care.